I'm such an idiot

I'm such an idiot. Right now i'm typing with a massive bandaid thingy on my right hand. Why?.
I saw this red dot thingy under my skin which looked standing out and without even thinking i got a pair of nail clippers and started cutting myself. First time i did it, didn't hurt then the second time i felt like a fast pinch. BOOM! I BLEED BLEED BLEED. Omg i didn't expect a river rush of fucken blood, i was expecting like 1 drop. I didn't over react at first cause i thought it was going to shop like 30secs. I ran around the house screaming " OMG NEED TISSUES TISSUE!!" with my left hand trying to stop the bleeding. Then after 20secs and seeing the blood flow wasn't slowing down i started over-reating so bad. I'm not even afraid of blood but it was so much blood i didn't even want to look at it. I seriously thought i had accidently cut a vein and need stiches or something. I was scared that if it didn't get into hospital fast enough my fingers won't get enough circulation and i'll need an amputation. I WAS SERIOUSLY thinking of all these scary scenarios.
After 10minutes of like crying, worried my fingers were getting pale and cold, i decided to check if it was bleeding still or not only to find i had stopped bleeding and i just over reacted my ass off so bad. IM JUST GLAD IT AINT BLEEDING ANYMORE (:
laugh all you want, i was scared shitless.
i'm not even thinking straight anymore these days.