Doomsday

Tomorrow is doomsday for sure, well for me. Because it's a life and death dilemma (I've overly exaggerating this now) Why is this a dilemma? Cause I'm 90% positive we're going to get our math yearlies back. FUCK. For all you that didn't know already, i didn't make the cut for ext 1. Laugh all you want cause i honestly know some of you are cause everyone is selfish to some certain degree whether we're afraid to admit it or not. (also i have insecurity problems) I even got some words of wisdom from my peers "You just missed it by 6" , well thank you very much for your words of encouragement cause you truly inspire me strive. Those words will now be forever implemented onto my brain.
As for the the whole idea of tomorrow, it gets me all anxious. I'm worried i didn't do good at the same time hoping i will. Because in the end all i have is my faith-faith that i did good enough and faith that I did what was expected of me. Personally i don't have the confidence in myself when it comes to maths, at least not anymore. Cause I blew it badly on my half yearly when i got all cocky and karma is a bitch and likes to get you back. The half yearlies drove me into some neurotic spiral of depression and resulted in some bad hermit activity. At least if i know i did well, i could chill ax. If i didn't then atleast i know all that hard work was all for nothing and all faith will be lost which will result in quitting. I don't want to give up, it's the first step to failure.
Nobody wants to fail.
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