I'm such an awkward person. OR.. I'm just really paranoid. One of my biggest fears (and trust me i have many) are awkward social situations. Seriously I'm so scared of these kind of things avoid certain things.
Like when i see someone i don't know very well walking ahead i might keep at a slow pace just to avoid having to maybe walk with them and thus avoiding the awkward conversation of "Hi, how was....? " Or worst, i might pretend to not see someone just so i can keep on walking without maybe stopping and so on. Maybe that explain my fear for starting conversations, like there are a million things that can go wrong. What if this person is in a shit mood and starts lashing verbally at me? Like how do i know. Maybe like i just said I'm just too paranoid from a few bad past experiences which have scarred me forever with the delusion of the situation being awkward. (now that sure sounds stupid)
This may sound all creepy like the cliche creeper or something but sometimes when i can't sleep i lay in bed re-enacting the whole awkward situation all over again in my head just thinking of how awkward it was and how i should of approached it better or avoid it in the future and it gives me the shivers.
The Official formal countdown currently stands at 1 day. Woo USA currently at 2 days.
Oh today i went to Westmead children's hospital to visit my nephew whose sick and all i could think of were krispy kreme doughnuts. We'll that's besides the point. The point is i want some doughnuts. :)
Lien
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