Stressed out RANT

I'm so stressed out right now and the worst hasn't even started. I was just so out of it today, i'm out of it every single day. With exams coming up and everything, it gets me all stressed out just thinking about it. I have so much to work on especially maths. I feel that it's just one of my weak subjects and ENGLISH. Especially English. I also feel that biology is one of those easy subjects but like you're teachers make it seem harder than what it really is? IF you know what I'm saying.Then there's modern history, i think it's one of my stronger subjects, i have a great teacher who practically spoons feeds us and I'm so grateful for that, you have no idea.  But it was so disappointing when we got our modern essays back, our class did so shit in comparision with the other class. So not fair, we covered everything and only issue was we didn't have proper linking sentences and topic sentences which was pretty stupid cause that just makes it all repetitive, Don't you lose marks for being repetitive? Apparently the highest marked essay (24/25) was totally repetitive and each paragraph began with "Another reason why the final solution was implemented was.." literally can you imagine just reading four pages with each paragraph like that?

Another reason why the final solution was implemented was..
Another reason why the final solution was implemented was..
Another reason why the final solution was implemented was.

You'll be wanting to gouge your eyes our before you got to the second page. 

So i'm totally stressed out because now i have this other essay on Meiji Japan for modern history, which is also out of 25. Ms is expecting us all to succeed in this and i don't think i can live up to her expectations. I worked my ass off for the Holocaust essay, the whole class did and Ms even edited our essays and in the end we all did shit. Federico marked them and he gives you shit for stupid things. But whatevers I'm not bummed about it or anything. I just need to work harder. The stressing thing about it is that so much energy is required to work my ass off and I'm feeling so worn down. School is just wearing me down, i wake up every morning tired and sore suffering sleep deprivation, endure 6hours of school of teachers giving you shit, get home, have a couple of hours to myself followed by dinner then i'm working until like 10 because that's all i can actually handle before i needa crash. So i lay there in bed unable to sleep until like 1. I'm so unfocused and i just wish a had more concentration and better work ethic.

I have so much to do, and I'm worried i won't get it all done, least not to the best of my ability. I need to get into some good studying habits.


Lien