Trust.
Something i have a real hard time with, i want to be able to trust but somehow there's always a reason not to or maybe it's just me looking for a reason to not trust. It's something that's always managed to back stab me. I want to be able to trust, at the same time i don't want to feel vulnerable. Trust and vulnerability are two things that i feel are so related. I feel that if i trust someone that I'm always going to be a little vulnerable, they'll eventually stab me in the back and that will just fucking kill me. I don't like coming off as needy either.
Insecurity
Something i have a lot of also can lead to other things like jealousy and anger. I'm so insecure about a lot of things. But I'm dealing with it and learning how to get over. The process is a little long and daunting however.
Happy
A feeling i get sometimes but it never seems to last long enough.
Truth
Something i can't always handle yet I'm always so curious to know.If you ever tell me something and i seem to get all quiet, it's probably a sign i couldn't handle it.
Stress.
HAHA something i feel all the goddamn time lately but don't know how to properly deal with.
Fear
Yeap the worst has yet to come.
All of the reasons above is what makes me such a closed person, if you're wondering.
This blog is coming off as depressing as fuck.
So I'll finish it with a happy note.I went for a nice walk around the area today around sunset. It was peaceful, not hot and just real nice. It emptied my mind of everything and made me feel infinite.
Lien
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