Dedication to Aivee

I don't know where to start, I'm lost for words. You told me on such a short notice, if only i knew early I would have spent every waking minute with you because i cannot possibly imagine 2010 without you. I feel so empty knowing I won't be able to see your radiant smiling face in the morning, not being able to see you at school, not being able to come up and talk to you whenever I please. I'm missing you like crazy already and will continue to. It's not a worst case scenario as though you're leaving for another country but it has left me shattered with the same impact, I'm so used to having you around and coping without you is an almost impossible task. I've grown to be so accustomed to having you around. You were the cherry on top of my sundae.

I haven't known you for that long, but in that short time I've gotten to know you, love you and admire you. I admire your independence, your individuality and courage. You were always there for support when I needed it. You are such a cheerful and of fun loving person of good nature please don't ever change. I always assumed we would graduate together, attend formal together and was looking forward to year 11 camp together just like good old times in 09'. Camp was the best 3 days shared with you and Christina. Remember canoeing at camp, we kept rowing into the bushes and how that night we stay up to 2am talking about boys, school and whatnot. What about sport & drama? I can't possibly imagine how empty it would be, the hours we spend talking about the pointless, weird and stupid things. I enjoyed all of it. But tomorrow it might just be an eerie silent waiting for your laughter, your voice to be heard.

The last time I ever cried this hard was probably a little over a year ago when my mum broke the news to me we were moving to the states. When you told me you had something important to tell me on Monday my brain ran though dozens of scenarios but none nevertheless something so heartbreaking. I was in so much shock when you told me, you and Christina were bursting in tears I just knew it was bad news, your news left me in tears and I'm a person who laughs when someone dies in a movie.

Aivee i will miss you so so much, continue to love you and hope we don't eventually drift. School just won't be the same without you. You were what made this place what it was. I know will we continue to talk and hang out it just doesn't feel 100% the same. I'll be looking forward to seeing you at our year 10 formal and catching up with you.

Lots of love Lien xo

ps. Aivee if your not liking it at your new school you can always come back, we'll always be here with open arms.